If we were asked to enumerate the things that are still indecipherable to humans even if we have in our possession the most advanced technology and developments in this century, human emotions would obviously top the list.

Nobody could clearly define a pattern for human reactions and emotions that persons display in different situations. It is known that every human is different from each other---from their genetic make-up and DNA contents to the very mechanism that makes them tick in this world full of complications and questions that we either dare answer or leave eternally as a set of enigmatic problems. This set of questions is clearly undefined, even to the most brilliant human mind, for these questions require not supreme intellect and logic. Ironically, these questions break and fool wit and understanding making them the most difficult questions to answer. As a matter of fact, these characteristics made them hard to see and know that they are actually existing in their state: almost eternally unanswered and unsolved.

These questions are questions of the transcendental, religion, the complexity of social organizations, collective mentalities and consciousness, the mysteries of cultures and beliefs, even our past and future. Not all bother to ask questions on the things mentioned, but we all know of the questions that everybody recognize as enigma; the issues posed by the human "heart".

Emotions. Nobody really knows where they come from, but scientists present an interesting theory. Biologists say that emotions are in fact, just the increase in the levels of certain hormones and neurotransmitters. The excess levels make you react the way you do when faced with a certain a situation.

If we deem this to be the real reason, then what about crimes of passion? If a stalker kills a girl, then he could plead that he's not guilty due to hormonal imbalance.

Oh, yeah. I can see it now.

"Your honor, my client has experienced increased levels of serotonin in his blood which drove him to be obsessed with the victim. It was an imbalance in his biological mechanism that pushed him to stab the victim which lead to her death. So now, with the evidence due presented, I plead that my client be acquitted and not charged for this case."

Bah.

But isn't the other way around? Isn't it the increase in the levels of these chemicals the reaction mechanism of your body, rather than it being the causative factor for the things that you feel?

Feelings and emotions drive humans to the edge of their sanity and genetic predisposition.
Pity led women to kill themselves and drove men out of their heads, mercy made girls and boys sacrifice their education and young lives, and love and sacrifice made countless humans submit themselves to injustice everyday because of them. But note that it is also pity that saves the hungry, it is that sacrifice feeds the poor, love picks up the wounded and mercy clothes the naked.

We know what these feelings do to us and how they make our lives the way they are right now, but we still don't know where they flow from. Do they come from inside every human, or is there something or someone who supplies them to us? Are they programmed, or conditioned? Are they real, or just pure selfish indulgence?

These things shall be enigmatic for as long as the human race exists.
But having these questions give us reasons to find answers to them, no matter how futile the efforts are.
This is, the ultimate irony of the human race that will stand for generations to come.

Maybe humans are born to be ironic creatures.
That's how we are.
So damn stubborn. So damn hard-headed.
And, just the same, we don't, and maybe, we won't know why.


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Tomorrow, you'll be off somewhere, and I'll be left here with nothing to do but to just trust you.
But hey, I just want to let you know that I do...I sincerely do, because I chose to.

Goddammit, Jericho.



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I miss you.