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Monday, April 30, 2007

excess of fluids


Long before Pasteur formulated the germ theory of disease, the ancient Greeks had a rather eccentric theory to explain why diseases occurred in human beings. They say that any ailment is caused by the excess of any of the humors, or the fluids inside the human being. When any of these fluids go above their normal levels, they tend to cause a serious imbalance inside and therefore, cause discomfort and pain. The only way to relieve pain is to inflict more pain by extracting and taking out the excess fluids. To prove this theory, they have rather misrepresented a lot of things that occurred in the human body. A good example would be the appearance of pus. Yes, pus does appear like an excess portion of the skin's fluids, and it goes gushing out from an infected wound, which, of course, causes pain. And true enough to their theory, once you squeeze out all the pus and clean the wound, it heals more quickly. And so, because of pus and other "evidences", the Greeks have, for centuries, said "Hah! I told you so!"to other civilizations that coexisted with them.

As a Bio major, I find this theory funny, because due to modern and current knowledge, I know where diseases and other discomforts really come from. But just now, I realized that this ancient and baseless theory still holds true for certain things that occur in the human body and psyche.

Isn't crying an example of taking out excessive fluids from the body that may damage it completely? The lachrymal ducts in your eyes produce a great deal of fluid that clouds your vision, cleans your eyes and waters your parched cheeks. It gets rid of the excess humors that fill the mind and heart with incoherent cries and violence to the brim.

Notice that after you're done crying, you feel better.

You feel less hopeless.
You feel less suicidal.
You feel less homicidal.
Your head clears.
You see things better.

So taking out excess things from the body through tears has its benefits.

But it's funny that though we know of its benefits, we still don't want to cry.

It seems like that for humans, getting eaten and destroyed from the inside is a lot better than showing weakness and vulnerability.

Stupid human ego.

But hey, I am human, aren't I?

where the boat takes me nowadays


CURRENT EVENTS

1.Current Activity
~blogging for my sanity

2. Current date and time
~April 30, 4.47 am

3.Current music (if any)
~Ever After- Bonnie Bailey

4.Current school, education level and course
~Ateneo, second year college, BS Bio

5.Current boyfriend/s
~Brad Pitt. No joke.
Ang hindi maniwala durugista.

6. Current weight
~108 lbs

7. Current vital stats
~34-25-34

8.Current addiction/s
~Anything sweet
~70's, 80's, 90's music
~Jigoku Shoujo
~Death Note
~Prince of Tennis
~Detective Conan
~George Orwell
~Calculus (WEH! toinks XD)

9.Current book/s
~Critical Essays - George Orwell
~Sons and Lovers -D.H Lawrence
~Ano Ngayon Ricky? -Rosario de Guzman-Lingat
~Calculus for the Life Sciences -Bittinger, Brand, Quintanilla (Toinks! isang malaking WEH)

10.Current computer program/s open as you answer this
~Winamp
~Mozilla Firefox
~Yahoo! Messenger

11.Current food favorite/s
~Anything sweet

12.Current food craving/s
~Chocolate.

13.Current drug/s (by this, I mean medications, if any)
~Ascorbic acid
~Supplemental Iron
~Caffeine

14. Current temperature of your surroundings
~According to the thermometer here, it's 30 degrees celsius.

15.Current negative vibes source/s
~Noise
~Excessive and incessant questioning
~Food other than sweets
~Drinks other than water
~Unsolicited remarks

16.Current positive vibes source/s
~Jericho
~Coffee
~Books
~Sweets
~School
~Work (Calculus----WEEEHHH)
~Silence
~Drawing
~Blogging

17.Current schedule
~
8-4.30---school
4.30-5.30---travel time
5.30-6---rest+bath time
6-9---sleep
9-wee hours---study, read, blog, watch videos...etc, etc...whatever rocks my boat

18.Current mood and disposition
~Contemplative and sensitive

19.Current time
~5.08 am

20.Current thoughts
~Plans for the week
~Calculus long test this Thursday
~Fil long test this Wednesday

21.Current problem/s
~Money
~Noise

22.Current companion/s
~wala, tulog pa sila lahat.

23.Current stuff in your bag
~Notebook
~Planner
~Photocopied Calculus exercises
~Planner
~Pencil case
~Kikay kit (toinks.)
~Umbrella
~Fil book
~Filipino dictionary
~wallet and coin purse
~comb
~fan

24.Current stuff waiting to be disposed
~Stash of scrap papers on my study table
~Old files in my PC
~Empty conditioner bottle in the bathroom
~Empty highlighter refill cartridge
~Old thoughts and feelings on something I did not dare tackle all my life (seeesh)

25.Current stuff waiting to be acquired
~Conditioner
~Highlighter refill cartridge
~Black Gtec C-3 refill
~Pants
~Shorts

26.Current news item/s in the society
~Miles Domingo, may boyfriend na? (please refer to 'current' number 5)
~Kris Aquino and baby James
~Oyo Boy switches networks
~Lady American military officer's (Campbell) murder
~Labor day rallies
~Elections

27.Current prominent sight/s
~Computer screen (glare and all)
~Frame of my pink eyeglasses
~Flash disk on the table
~George Orwell book
~Calculus exercises answered in practice notebook
~Empty coffee mug

28.Current tendency/ies
~Violence (if not given daily dose of caffeine)

29. Current thought/s
~When is this 'current' thing going to end?

30.Current thing/s to do after this
~Publish this
~Fix school stuff
~Go upstairs to take a bath
~Fix myself
~Go to school


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Taking a break from solving and drawing stuff.
Have a nice week, y'all.

Friday, April 27, 2007

George Orwell


Animal Farm is love.
I should have read this book a lot earlier.

So childish is the method of delivery, but how deeply political it is.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

mula sa pinapatigil para sa nagpapatigil


Hindi lingid sa kaalaman ng mga kaibigan ko noong high school na hindi ako kumakain ng madalas. Alam nila na puwedeng dumaan sa akin ang tatlong araw na hindi kumakain ng hindi ko namamalayan. Normal lang ito lahat para sa akin, at sa totoo lang, ipinagmamalaki ko pa ito. Hindi lahat ng tao ay may ganitong pagtagal sa hindi pagkain. Puwedeng puwe niyo akong isalang sa Survivor. Tubig lang, puwede na.

Alam rin nila na kung kakain man ako, isang cup noodles lang at sky flakes, solb na ako nun hanggang kinabukasan. Alam din nila na kakain lang ako kapag malungkot na malungkot ako. At kung nagkataon, baka makayanan kong kumain ng isang kalderong kanin with matching ulam na isang bandehado rin. Pero hindi madalas ang mga ganitong pangyayari. Kadalasan ay masaya naman ako. Kaya't kadalasan, hindi rin nakakatikim ng pagkain ang katawan ko. Kung makakatikim man ito, pilit nitong ilalabas ito upang mapanatili ang kawalan sa loob ko.

Siguro naiisip niyo na kung anong kondisyon ko. Hindi, hindi ako ganun. Para sa akin, wala ito, kahit matagal na nilang sinasabi na ganon nga ako. Tatawagin niyo akong ganun, e hindi pa naman ako buto't balat? Sa pangarap palang yun.

Kahit anong himok nila sa akin para kumain ng normal at maayos, hindi ko sila pinakinggan kahit minsan. Ngingiti lang ako, saglit na tatango at o-oo, pero sa loob ko alam kong ayaw ko at hindi ko kailangang gawin iyon. Hindi sa hindi ko sila mahal at itinuturing na kaibigan. Nakikita ko na na-a-alarma sila sa ginagawa ko, ngunit para sa akin, walang dapat ika-alarma. Buhay pa naman ako, maayos naman ang pakiramdam ko. Isa pa, kung kakain ako, tataba ako.

Pero ikaw, ang kulit mo.
Ikaw lang, sa tanan ng pagiging ganito ko ang nakapagpakain sa kin ng isang cup ng kanin at pinapigilan pa sa akin ang maasim na bolang gustong kumawala sa lalamunan ko habang kumakain. Nagagalit ka pa sa akin. Pinapanood pa mo ang bawat subo ko sa pagkain ko. Sabay ngingiti ka. Hindi ko maintindihan, pero parang ginusto ko nang ubusin ang kinakain ko noon. Nalabuan ako nun, pero ang lumalabas malinaw na gusto ko ang approval mo.

Sinabi mong dapat akong mangako sa'yo na ayusin ang pagkain ko. Nangako ako. Pero may oras talaga na mas malakas ang higit apat na taong gawain ko na ito. Sinabi ko sa'yo to, at umiyak ako. Inaasahan ko nang magagalit ka na sa akin hanggang sa mamatay tayo pareho, o hanggang mamatay ako dahil dito, pero hindi. Hindi ko inaasahan, pero umiyak ka kasama ko.

Nang mga panahon na ito, lagi akong umiiyak pagkatapos kong kumain. Hindi ko maintindihan, pero tumutulo nalang ang luha. Parang pakiramdam ko, may inilagay ako sa katawan kong hindi dapat andoon. Mag-te-text ako sa'yo, sasabihin kong nahihirapan na ako. Sasabihin mong kaya ko ito, dahil para sa ikabubuti ko ito. Ipapaalala mo ang pangako ko sa'yo. Pipikit ako hahawakan ang bracelet na bigay mo, at titigil ang luha.

Ngayon, sa bawat kalahating tasang kanin na aking pilit na inuubos at pilit ipasok sa tiyan ko, ikaw ang naiisip ko. Ikaw at ang pangakong binitiwan ko.

Salamat, Jericho.

Monday, April 16, 2007

college life straight from Miles' mouth


For Mia and other interested college freshmen

Today is the day I begin to live as a college sophomore as today is the first day of my summer classes. I have summer classes all my college life, because it is a requirement of BS Bio.

Losing my summer to academics sucks, but I really feel that it is, indeed, an affirmation, that I am already a student taking her tertiary education in a university. The first two semesters still felt like high school, because I went to school at 8 and classes end at 4.30 in the afternoon. Also, the way I treated academics were still high school-like. It was just recently I learned to go out with my block mates or with other people to eat and have a good time. It was just that I was trained in my high school to be rigid and strict when it comes to studying, even though I get frequent pangs of laziness and procrastination attacks.

I remember when my life here in Ateneo officially began. The school sent letters and instructions for the annual Orientation Seminar (OrSem) for the incoming freshmen. My heart was pounding wildly in my chest as I read the letter, because for three days, I'd be there, stuck in a sea of people I don't know. It was pretty much like my first day in kindergarten, only that I was more confident then. I don't know why, but there's something I feel that's so big and formidable in college that I just know I'll not be able to take it head on. Maybe the knowledge that my college years will be probably be the last time I'd study and hit the books, and it would be the years that would pave my career, scared me. The fact that a minimum of four years in a university could make or break your life hit me like a huge rock. This 'new chapter' of my life is a difficult one to open, but the knowledge that much depended on it made it made it harder to leave the old chapters behind. Also, the thought that I am entering the Ateneo, a university that many say is an 'elitist' one, made me flinch. I came from a middle class family and a public science high school, so I felt in my heart that UP is the right place for me.

OrSem came, and I met a lot of new people and friends. My course block (L2) and English block (R36) were groups of very nice and friendly people, and I immediately felt that I was welcome.
I was happy to know that I am still surrounded by normal people, though a vast majority of the school population still screamed "RIIIICCCHHH!!!" in my ears. From then on, I knew that I would be dealing with different kinds of people here in this school. The diversity of the people here excited me, and I was happy to know that someday, I would find my place here.

Everything that you'd experience in the whole course of your academic and social life in college would teach you the things that you need to know to go out into the big meat grinder: the real world. From the OrSem to your graduation day, you will always be taught to do things yourself and these things would always open a new door for you. They'd teach you not the theoretical aspect of life, but rather the application of these things. I remember my first shot with this lesson. When I registered for my first semester, I had no adult to supervise what I was doing. I was very nervous, because I was used to doing things like this with an adult---I was just tagging along. I had to rely on reading and listening to instructions said or posted by the RegCom staff, asking politely and smiling to people I didn't know. It was like a practical test for my Reading comprehension and GMRC and Values classes when I was in grade school and high school. When I was finally registered, all was done, and I was very proud of myself.

The spirit of independence is always expected to be imbibed in you in a university because aside from registering or enrolling yourself in school, there are a lot of aspects of your life in college that would require it. Take the simple act of commuting to school. Many, including me, find this relatively easy to do (though the fact that you'd encounter traffic, heat, rain and pollution outside is difficult to ignore), but I know people who have never ridden a jeep all their life. When college came, they had to do it in order to bring themselves to school. The joys of seeing places, meeting people, eating street food and even the dangers in the street is a whole new dimension for them. Though I knew how to commute, I have a ridden in a school bus for almost 12 years. I have seen a lot of aspects of the streets of Manila, but I admit that there a lot of things that I have yet to learn that really surprise. Take the blood-curling traffic in Katipunan for example. It never seems to dissipate because of the big volume of cars trying to fit themselves in the narrow road. I have experienced leaving my house an hour and a half before my class just to experience the bitter irony of ending up 10 minutes late all because of the damned traffic jam in the road just across my school.

In college, your whole world will probably revolve around your academics, as it is the very reason for being in school (duh! haha. :)). You're expected to attend your classes, like in high school, but there are stuff that might be new for freshmen. For example, for every subject, you'd go from one classroom to another. You'd have different teachers, and every one of them have their own set of rules, which are, of course, are based on the school's rules. Professors and instructors very rarely spoon feed, neither do they run after you when you miss a requirement or when you're failing. They also give you the freedom not to attend their classes (called 'cuts'), provided that you don't go over the maximum number of absences. They don't teach and talk a lot, and they expect you to have read or studied in advance a least. Also, you'd find that for your classes, you can choose your own professors and subjects, fix the whole lot of your schedule yourself and you could also choose to take extra units or less units for the semester. You can choose to get the difficult but challenging prof, or the easy-A prof, and same goes with the subjects. Freshmen are under the block system so they won't get to choose most of their classes and professors now, though. The closest thing they could get to what the upperclassmen are doing is choosing their own PE class. Imagine that, you could choose your own PE class now---the sport or discipline you want! How cool is that? Now that's totally different from high school.

But don't think that every thing screams academics here. There is the freedom of choosing your extra-curricular activities, such as joining an organization. There is definitely an org in Ateneo that would meet and feed your interests and talents, and you can choose to join it or not. You can choose to be org-less or org-full (meaning, joining more than one org) for the school year. You can choose to be an active member, or even go as far as elected for a leadership position in it.

As you've noticed, most of the things that are done here in college are fueled by independence and choice. But it's not always that. Remember that there always exists this thin line between being PLAIN independent and RESPONSIBLY independent.

There's this thing called the "Freshman Syndrome". This is a collection stereotypical stuff that freshmen tend to do and experience in their virgin year in college. Freshmen tend to be in small groups always, stick to their blocks and be noisy in school public areas. They are cheery and happy with the new experiences and friends that they have. They tend to explore and go around the school, and are eager to try out the facilities (such as the internet connections in the comlabs, the study halls and the library. And oh, did I mention you can actually sleep in the library? *wink*).

But also part of the "stereotypical stuff" are the problems and errors freshmen tend to do unknowingly. Given that their schedule has lots of breaks in it (I had two 3-hour breaks in both semesters for my freshman year), they tend to go out of school and hang out in Katipunan, or even go as far as watching a movie in Eastwood or Gateway. They join lots of orgs, then be cold, active or hyperactive in it. Most freshmen had trouble adjusting with the professor's independence scheme that they tend to be the batch that bash profs the most. They were so used to being spoon fed so they resort to saying that profs "...don't teach a goddamn thing!" or "They make us read too much!".

So, I say that what incoming freshmen have to see, based on my experience, is that they have to see and learn, sooner or later, that THIS IS THE SYSTEM THAT EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH and they had to cope and improve, fix themselves accordingly or leave it and the school for good. I have seen people who became drunk with the independence that college life offered them. It topped their logic much to their scholastic demise. They fell out of the boat for good(read: kicked out of school).

Since you have lots of long breaks, learn to use them wisely and properly for studying or doing some school stuff. Not that I'm saying that you should take out your bonding time with your friends completely, but you should also take time out to study in the lib. It really helps. Movies in Eastwood can wait. Instead of bashing your prof, why not try to learn and accept his or her style and cope with it? Read in advance, write more, practice solving problems more. Sure, you can bash him for eternity, but bashing him and not working and doing anything about his subject at all won't get you an A, or a D even. Joining orgs is fun, yes, but avoid being hyperactive. On the other hand, avoid joining, and then, be a no-show. Learn to find the right balance between org life and academic life in order to find the level of activity that is right for you.

There's this saying that in life, independence is fuel, but discipline is the engine. You are expected to be independent, but you are also expected to handle it well.

I wish you all the best, and I hope that college would teach you every thing, if not most of the things that you could use with our everyday bouts with the real world.



Tuesday, April 10, 2007

new skin, baby!


Finally! :)

Just to promote a change in scenery, I chose something orange and pretty...and the song I really love (Ever After by Bonnie Bailey) as its theme to boot.

Hope y'all like it as much as I do.

Cheers!
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I miss my twisted sunshine...
Sana Thursday na...

vacay! oh yeah, baby


I just returned from my 2 day stay in Mindoro with my family. We left April 6th, and came back to Manila on the 8th. It was all fun in the beach and family bonding...and I'm going to upload all the photos from the trip in Multiply, as soon as the internet connection here stops being a pain in the gluteus maximus.

Summer school starts in a week, and honestly, I'm really quite excited. Though many of my upperclassman Bio friends say that having Calculus during the summer would drain out most of your gray matter, I would like to take on the challenge.

Maybe one of the reasons I'm excited about taking summer school is because it is the affirmation that I am now officially a college student. Only college students have summer classes not necessarily because they failed a subject. It could be a requirement for their course, pretty much like my case as a Bio major.

This Thursday, i'll be going to school to get my grades, and the next day for the reg.
And then, finally, on the 16th, summer school begins.
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POP! goes my heart!
haha.

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camille fajardo domingo. miles. kim. kaiserin. dyosa. chibi. baby. 18 years old. January 25,1989. Aquarian. Ateneo de Manila University, BS Biology. atenean scholar. Biologist in the making. sophomore. Block L2. [English] Block R36. GABAYano. Matanglawin--lapatan-eer. Quezon City Science High School, Batch 2006. Avo-I, Curie-II, Curie-III, Avo-IV. School of the Holy Spirit, Batch 2002. debater. vice president--Quesci debate society. MCDO(Mga Cute Debating Originals) member. book lover. orange. black. red. stars. caffeine addict in rehabilitation. Lacto-ovo pescestarian by choice. net-aholic. serial procrastinator. workaholic [na tamad. how ironic, isn't it?].

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