ok. I know what you're thinking.
yes. I am complaining.
It's not my nature to complain aloud, or to complain to someone about my misery verbally, but I really have to let things out.
I AM DEAD TIRED.
I AM FRUSTRATED.
I FEEL ALONE IN THIS.
I went to UST this afternoon with Bricci only to hear these words:
"We can't accomodate you."
Immediately, I felt weak and my hands were trembling. The director kept on talking and I felt the need to cry. I felt my head throb with pain as I held the tears in. The world came crashing down and thoughts of bitterness ran through my mind.
Where the hell are my groupmates? they are supposed to be with me in this. They MUST share the pain and frustration I feel for OUR research project. Why aren't you here?
When the director dismissed us, we went out though I wanted to stay put and defend why we should be the one working in the lab. I wanted to engage in a debate or a discussion with her for her to know things about our project. But, with trembling knees and shaky voices, we went out of her office. I uttred a pained thank you to the guard and went out.
The very instant that my left foot touched the flooring ourside her office, a tear came down. I walked then held on to the stair rainling for support. I wanted to cry hysterically but stopped myself. I was very disappointed. And it hurt me much.
i felt alone that time.
but I know I never was.
I'll find another lab.
Everything will be ok.
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3:25 PM
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sleepless nights
wow.
it's like my 7th night this week without sleeping the sleep of the just.
i really miss my pillows,because I spent the past nights stealing naps on the sofa.
it's all because of research.
research!
dammit.
I'm really dead tired...and guilty.
i feel i'm leaving my other subjects behind..and I don't like it one bit.
I hate sacrificing time for any subject to do something else, but I really had to for this God forsaken subject. Plus, the administration is sticking to the "No class interruption policy", so we cannot be given a week off to do our research. Actually, what they're doing is pure stupidity. they are making us choose when there were no choices in the first place. grrrr.
what's more important? research or the other subjects? so, it's 1 against 8.
to think that research is not even a major subject. we are sacrificing this much for a minor subject.
God, help us.
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"I have a double major in research and my consultation fee is P1000 per hour. You are lucky to have me here without any fees!"~$%^&*! bat ako ang mauunang pumirma kesa sa kanya? ako ang principal, ako ang huling pipirma!!!"-Blossom"You don't know how to prioritize!"-Bubbles"Why aren't you attending your review? For research? Attend your review, or else, there shall be 5 points deduction from your research paper!!"-Buttercup"The Powerpuff Girls have dedicated their lives to be involved in crime and join the forces of evil!"-Barberong narrator
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4:35 PM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
i'm back
it's been how long since my last post?
wow...antagal na nga.
ano nga bang dahilan at ang tagal kong di na-update ang blog na ito?
katamaran? dahil busy ako?
or maybe I've just run out of sensible things to write about?
i don't really know.
anyway...
well, welcome back, my blogger-self.
cheers.
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11:00 AM
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